Rising up again from the ashes
The bitch is back
With better weapons and hotter moves
Power has been restored to those who deserve it
Love has filled her heart
Friends have surrounded her
Everything is amazing
Just thought I'd update for you kids.

Get The Fuck Out Of Here

Slam your fucking body against a wall
Punches thrown left and right
Shouts,yells and screams heard deep into the night
Watch the blood run down your face
I'll make you wish you were never born
Don't you ever do that shit to me again
I'll make you pay
Don't you ever fucking lay a hand on me again
Take that knife to your throat
Pray for dead motherfucker
When I'm through with you
You'll be wishing you had just ended it all before this
I won't let you die without you feeling the most pain you possibly can
Your going to suffer bitch
I'm going to be your punisher
Fucking die bitch die
I fucking hate you
I can't take all this hate
I want you fucking out of here
Step off
Fucking hell don't you get it?
Blood will pour
Screams will be heard
I hate you more than words can fucking express
No high can make this pain go away
Goodnight bitch,I'll bury you tommorow.

The Death Of The Year

Scarlet tears fall from the fresh white skin
The tormented come from far and wide
All to see this little girl die
She was the key to it all
Notorious for being the purest of evil
Wandering around, searching for a new victim
She may be little but she is so powerful
They all fear her
But today is the day she gets what is coming to her

Hate To Love

I'm falling,falling,falling
Couldn't you hear me screaming for you?
Fading away to nothing
Burning up into ashes that will blow away in the wind
This hole that Alice went down is neverending
I should never have taken that left turn
Take me back to where we started out
I don't want to be here anymore
Remember me when the days are colder and the nights are longer
Who will you turn to then?
Surely not her,she won't care for you then
Not like I will
Don't try to guess at this
Don't try to take a guess at me
For even I can't tell you what this is all about
My head is spinning,I'm running so fast
I can't catch up no matter how hard I try
I want to reach out and touch you
But when I turn you won't be there for me to reach out to
I miss you and I want to be there for you always
Love will never be the same for me again
Touch me and make me feel alive
Let my skin burn for you,let my mind reel
Take me in
Remind me what it was like to have a passion that burned
Throw away your doubts and our past
Begin anew with me
Remember that I need love
I will always give that to you
That's a promise
Darling I will never do you harm
My heart beats for you not him
I lied when I said he was all that I ever wanted
It was you all along
It was you for so long
I want you now
I want you forever
Take me in
Fulfill your lust
We will stand as one forever
You and me
No one else,it's always us
I love you and I want you to know it
Show it
Be there
I love you.

Show Me Love

Take me in your arms
Show me that you truly care for me
Let all my doubts just melt away
For once take my hand
Don’t be afraid to show your feelings
Tell me what your inner secrets
Make me apart of it all
Please don’t keep me in the dark any longer
I need love and care
I’m like a flower
If you keep me in the dark for awhile
I will wilt and die
Don’t allow that to happen to me, to us.
My thoughts tell me I’m flawed
That it’s all my fault
But maybe your just insecure and nervous
Sometimes when you talk
I know you mean well
You just need to open up more
Let me in

The Awful Truth

It was over so long ago
I mean't to hurt you that I will admit
Your money was all I wanted from you
The look of you was disguisting
I couldn't bring myself to press my lips to yours
Running away and acting foolish were the only things I could do
To keep myself entertained when I was around you
Your jokes were so juvenile
Your attempts at making out were just horrific
Now that we're friends
You try and bring up the past in hopes to hurt me
But I just laugh and say "Yes I remember that,wasn't it awful?"
You cannot bring me down,for I already shot you down =D

The Prize PART ONE

The chase is over
The game is won
Yet now the prize lays unclaimed
The victor shouts in triumph
The loser backs off into the distance
The prize lays behind feeling like a consolation
Challengers are very few but are not rare
The victor takes his prize in the end but it seems as if he is pretending
Unless he does not like to brag, and yet the prize feels still so worthless
Was the chase not so short lived
Maybe the victor would bask in the glow of the prize or at least take notice
The prize is left wondering where to go from here...

All There Ever Was.

Take a look at me and tell me what you see
Do you see that scared, submissive creature from the past
I know you think so little and so negatively
I know you dislike the way my life has been led
But frankly I couldn’t care less
For this is the way I choose to be
It is not up to you what I should do or say
It is my own life and I will lead it the way I see fit
You had a say before but now I realise so suddenly
That all you ever did was put me down
I don’t need that type of person in my life
What I need is love and affection
Not rude comments and hard hits
It’s true when you’d slap me
I’d blame myself for so long and never once you
But now I truly have come to see
That it was you that was hurting me
I never hurt you physically
I did my best never to hurt you emotionally
You never tried hard enough for us to survive
You never put in enough effort to keep us alive
I did all that I could and all that I should
Look at us now, look who we are
Nothing but strangers to one another
It’s funny in a sick way how we could be so close once upon a time
And now we have not enough to time to say hello
You love her and I love him
Torn away from each other
I’ve lost the will to call you a friend
But even still a part of me will always be with you
Never forget the times we had
Our love was once so strong,it stood still
I’ll remember you not for the person you are
But for the person you once should have been and was

You.

This hell that you’ve laid out for me
This hell that you can’t take away
This hell you’ve so gladly drawn out
Has haunted me for so long
Tonight you’ve shown me true pain
Tonight you’ve revived my heart’s curse
Tonight you’ve taken the knife and dug it in
When will you decide enough has been done?
I lay awake hoping for a saviour
I lay awake in dreams of torture
I lay awake with memories floating around
This pain I feel is real.
You’ve taken every opportunity to crush me
You’ve taken every step in order to kill me
You’ve taken the path to destruction
I want to thank you for showing me you haven’t changed
Remind me why your like this
Remind me why I feel that I should care
Remind me why I need succeed in this frail thing called life
The end is near
Drugs are my escape
Drugs are my true friends
Drugs are my comfort in times of need
You can’t judge me without knowing me and you have no idea who I’am.
Words can only go so far without meaning
Words can only do so little harm
Words can only describe what the heart and mind are feeling
You’ve not a clue to what this means.
Restore my faith in God
Restore my faith in people
Restore my faith in me.

Independence

I yearn to live
Cherish every moment here on my knees
All these feelings of suicide and loneliness
Have finally vanished for the time being
I finally found the reasons to stand tall
I want to make it through somehow,someway
My heart tells me to go on and stay strong
Don't want to be broken yet again
Dare to venture back to safety
I realised that finally
I can do it all,I'm not nothing without you

This dream is reality
Your life is fake
Every word out of your mouth is just one big lie
I try to hide away but it in the end it doesn't matter
Everything I thought about you
Was completely wrong
It breaks my heart
But I should have known better
Things like this just don't happen to people like me
We don't get what we should
We don't have friends that understand us
We are abused,forgotten,led to believe lies
My kind cling to the walls and beg to be unseen
I thought you would help me
Instead you crushed every hope I had
Now I go back to being that hated creature
For some reason I thought you were different
I can never forget again that my kind just doesn't mix in .

A Forgotten Plea.

These scars of mine
Are from a battle I had long ago
They represent who I was and who I am now
When I look at them I realise all that I was
And all that I am now
Your names and labels don't affect me anymore
I suffered for so long
You can't even begin to understand
I fought and I'm still fighting.

These cuts of mine,
They reflect my most inner being
They bring a sensation to my body that nothing else can
When my blood flows I feel alive
You can't understand unless you've truly done it and been in a position
Where you can't get out and your just numb
My pain doesn't go away
My head's always full of thoughts
I can't escape this eternal hell of mine
My imprisoned soul is crying out to be saved
Yet the plea goes unheard
When my blood runs
I feel alive
I feel everything and so much more
You can't understand if you haven't hit rock bottom
Don't try and fix me
You can't even begin to understand

This pain of mine is real.

Tears Don't Visit These Eyes Of Mine

You can't look past it
You deny it even to yourself
You refuse to even admit that it just may be the case
Your falling so hard
Im trying to do my best to catch you
But you just want to crash
How am I supposed to help you
If I can't even help myself anymore?
You know I'll do anything for you
But sometimes I just have to get away
You can't cry out anymore
You must be silent
Please try and remember me when I'm gone
You know I'll be thinking of you
I know my thoughts are a mess
But I just can't get my head straight
No matter how hard I try
You mean the world to me
Always have,always will
No matter where you go
I'll always love you
Our paths have crossed and who knows
Maybe they will again
I'll always remember you and the life you led
My death is near,or atleast my departure
You always knew that I spoke in riddles
And yet you chose to ignore the simple fact
When I'm gone I'll think of you
I hope I can write to you
Let you know what's going on
What my life has become
I'd love to know all about yours
I always thought you'd be something great
You have that in you
They can say what they want about me
But I know you and that wasn't you
It's not you now either but I have to face the facts
We've changed into such different people
I miss your laugh
I miss your tears
I miss everything about you
If I could I would cry
But somehow tears just don't come that often anymore to these eyes of mine
You'll always be remembered
But as what I'll never know
You were the best thing
You were the worst thing
You were everything
I can't believe it
I wonder what you'd think if you were to read this
Funny how life goes isn't it?
Seems like I have you on my mind alot
You had such an impact on my life
Your name's still on my window
I want to cry for us,for me,for you,for everything
But tears don't visit these eyes of mine anymore
You were my world
I'm glad your gone
I'm was so broken up that you were gone before
I thought I couldn't survive
My scars tell stories about me and my life
They can say what they want about me
But you I knew from the moment I saw you
Were destined for greatness

Memories.
Reminiscing.
Wondering.
Photos.
Letters.
Past.
Present.
Future.
E-mails.
Tears.
Laughter.
Stay.
Go.
Left,
Behind.
Goodbye.

Rain is pouring down like nothing I've ever seen before.
The streets are filled with cars,people dying to get home.
Just waiting for the bus.
Praying no one will see me as I get on.
Need to get away,need to get far away.
I want to go to a place where nobody knows who I'am.
I'm dying here with you,I'm dying here all alone.
We're not even together,it's you up in your own mind.
It's me all alone hoping you'll notice I'm there.
When you call I want to hang up on you.
When you don't I'm just waiting,hoping to hear your voice.
But now I've had enough.
I need to leave you behind,all of you.
I have to get away from everything and everyone.
I'm sorry to say but you'll never see my face again.
Maybe one day hear about me in the papers.
As the death of the year.

You just keep pushing and pushing,I keep falling and falling.
You expect me to understand you when you say nothing at all.
Playing the blame game won't get you anywhere.
Hearing me explaining and explaining won't open up your eyes.
All I feel is numb.
I don't know how to make you see,I'm screaming for you to look at me.
Say anything,say anything at all to me.
Make me feel that you care about me.
Make me understand you and why you do the things you do.
Look at it from my point of view for once.
Try to see it from my perspective.
But I know you won't.
You believe that your always right and all I do is complain.
But open up your eyes.
I need you to understand.
But you can't.

This is my life,not what is was before.
All these feelings that I've shared.
These are my dreams that I've never lived before. - Staind

On this night you will remember every dream you've ever dreamt.
Every wish you've ever prayed would come true.
On this night you will forget everything you've ever thought you knew.
Every word spoken,every thought shared,every song heard.
On this night you will leave me behind.
Every step you take,every mile you will put between us.
On this night I will take my own life.