These scars of mine
Are from a battle I had long ago
They represent who I was and who I am now
When I look at them I realise all that I was
And all that I am now
Your names and labels don't affect me anymore
I suffered for so long
You can't even begin to understand
I fought and I'm still fighting.
These cuts of mine,
They reflect my most inner being
They bring a sensation to my body that nothing else can
When my blood flows I feel alive
You can't understand unless you've truly done it and been in a position
Where you can't get out and your just numb
My pain doesn't go away
My head's always full of thoughts
I can't escape this eternal hell of mine
My imprisoned soul is crying out to be saved
Yet the plea goes unheard
When my blood runs
I feel alive
I feel everything and so much more
You can't understand if you haven't hit rock bottom
Don't try and fix me
You can't even begin to understand
This pain of mine is real.
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Appears you've been writing
Also some fighting
Holes are so deep
Painful heart is so steep
Once a thing's done
There's never again fun
Death is a lover
Temptation a cover
Thoughts are an ocean
The Soul screams from the motion
Sleeping is a joy
Waking a broken toy
Silence does not come
Feelings frozen and numb
The end of my babble is near
I forgot the last thing which was dear
I was curious and checked today; your site is now indexed into Google. I don't know if you wanted that or not, but if not, I'll remove the link I have to you on my blog and my main web site. Usually google will only index a site if there is at least one other that links to it. Google should soon (within 30 days) spider your web page in your profile, and also the comments and archives of your blog. If you're curious, you can just type this into Google.
site:lovenotessuicideletters.blogspot.com
Wow thank you, I feel flattered. =D I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile.I'll be sure to have an update soon.
No need to apologize if you haven't written for a while. Write mostly for yourself, then for others if you enjoy that too.
Sometimes I've felt like writing, but had no idea what to write about, and didn't even have a story idea. I found that if I had a line or two in my head, and then started writing it, sentences would "fall out" as I typed. One would follow the other. Contrarily, if I only kept them in my head, trying to add to them, I'd only ever get two sentences. I don't know if that works for everybody though. Of course, if you're still stuck after 2 or 3 sentences, and it doesn't seem "inspired," you could always keep going for a few more. Then edit out the "uninspired" stuff. If nothing "happens" after 5 or 6, then you might be better off waiting till better thoughts come to your head.
A little tip for you: Be sure to use your web browser to view your source, then save your blogger page to your hard drive. That will help ensure you'll never lose what you've written in case Blogger loses your data, or in case Blogger is ever bought out by a company even bigger than the Google Incorporated Corporate Conglomerated Company. :)
An better idea, one I need to use
myself, is to first write the blog into a text editor or word processor, and then save it to your hard drive. After you've saved a local copy, paste it into a blog and publish. That way you'll never lose your work due to a browser crash and you can utilize the spell checker. I've always been an above average speller, but found that there are still a few words I don't know. :) Also, that's another method I use to improve my spelling; by noting the correct spelling if the checker flags something.
You're welcome for the link. It's an incentive to be encouraged, something I wish I had more of when I was 16 and a girl. :) When I was 17 I became a man and learned I could write, thanks to some teachers at a new high school I was going to That took place after I had dropped out of high school for a year, and had decided to go back; I went in as a sophomore at 17, an age where I would have been a senior. It was.. hmmm... I guess I could say it was an education and be speaking quite literally! :)
My site isn't indexed anymore on google =( Aww.
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