Swim Down.

Don't take one step further.
I suggest you turn away and leave.
Remember I'm like a ticking time bomb.
You'll never know when I'm going to explode.
Tears,smears,blood,cuts,death,pills and drugs.
Unlimited choices.
Take your pick,what's your poison darling.
I've chosen all of them.
My time is sooner than expected.
You've forgotten how quick it is to slip away.
The mind is mightier then the strength of a thousand men.
You have yet to find out what life is all about.
Im struggling to stay afloat.
My life jacket has been ripped off my back.
I lack any energy to recover.
Come sweet surrender.
It's now or never.
Take the one last plunge my love.
Say goodnight and let your body sink to the bottom.

My Decision

I can't seem to think or finalise anything
This has been dragged on for so long
Your left wondering whats going on
I'm here saying it'll all be alright
But I'm doubting my abilities to choose
And your stuck in the middle until I make a decision
Your so oblivious
I can't hurt you in that way
But the way I act around you now
It affects you more than anything
I can't keep being hot and cold to you all the time
Somedays I want you and others I want you gone
Is this how its supposed to be
I don't think so
My love has it's own disappearing act
You never know when it's going to come back either
I feel like I'm scared to let go
Fear is what part of what is keeping me with you
I don't want to regret my decision later
But how can we continue on like this
At the beginning you were my world
Now I don't even know where you fit
Your place is somewhere but I'm having trouble
Have I outgrown you
Are we just too different
Somedays I want you to just hold me
Somedays I want you out my front door
Why can't I just decide
Life is so frustrating
And these days I'm wondering I'm just not the same

Love Me Or Leave Me.

I feel as if I'm flying
Except for my wings are only temporary
Once my dream either comes true or dies
Then it's decided where my wings will stay
I want so bad for this to come alive
I'm praying that this is for real
If not then that's alright
Atleast I knew all along that it wasn't for sure
Take me now in your arms
And tell me your true feelings
Let me in,let me know
Because without knowing I'm dying
I need you more than ever
But you seem to pull away
Can you stay forever?
I hope that is the case.