My Decision

I can't seem to think or finalise anything
This has been dragged on for so long
Your left wondering whats going on
I'm here saying it'll all be alright
But I'm doubting my abilities to choose
And your stuck in the middle until I make a decision
Your so oblivious
I can't hurt you in that way
But the way I act around you now
It affects you more than anything
I can't keep being hot and cold to you all the time
Somedays I want you and others I want you gone
Is this how its supposed to be
I don't think so
My love has it's own disappearing act
You never know when it's going to come back either
I feel like I'm scared to let go
Fear is what part of what is keeping me with you
I don't want to regret my decision later
But how can we continue on like this
At the beginning you were my world
Now I don't even know where you fit
Your place is somewhere but I'm having trouble
Have I outgrown you
Are we just too different
Somedays I want you to just hold me
Somedays I want you out my front door
Why can't I just decide
Life is so frustrating
And these days I'm wondering I'm just not the same